My girlfriend and I are both virgins, and our sex life is still awkward. I haven't even seen her orgasm yet. She says it's fine because love is important, but I really want to see her truly lose herself in pleasure... At some point, that desire twisted into a perverse longing to see her in the arms of another man. I hired a gigolo to take her on a two-day "seduction trip," hoping to fulfill this twisted fantasy. I believed our strong bond wouldn't be broken just because she was held by someone else once or twice. I held onto this belief until she returned home with a face flushed with lust.
