My husband was my senior in high school and the first man I ever dated. It's not that I have any particular complaints about him. But honestly, I wonder if it's okay for me as a woman to only know one man. I've only ever done missionary with my husband. I want to discover a side of myself that gets vulgar and messy, and I want someone to see me like that. I don't think my husband could ever imagine me as a lewd woman wagging her tail for pleasure.