The most important thing is that she still loves her husband. It's precisely because it's something so ordinary that Kaede finds herself questioning it. Her current dilemma is a simple one: she wants to feel that initial excitement she had when they first met. It's a rather extravagant desire, and a difficult one to fulfill, but apparently, she can't forget the man she met in her debut work... So this time, she decided to indulge in an illicit overnight stay with him, wanting him to see her as a woman first and foremost, before anything else. It seems that being in her forties has made her more sensitive to stimulation...