"Ice cream, can I have a bite?" You can see other people's things well, you want them because they're other people's things. That doesn't change even when you become an adult. A boy who was conveniently compatible with me when I was a college student. He confessed that he liked me, but I kept him as a friend without dating. When my sex life with my boyfriend wasn't great, when I was lonely without a boyfriend, when I sent a message saying "Can we meet now?" he always replied with "Okay." A convenient existence. Even after graduating, he didn't get a regular job and worked part-time at a bar he'd been working at since his student days. It seems he chose a part-time life so that he could come running whenever I called him. After becoming a working adult, I went to the bar for the first time in a long time with my boyfriend. I wanted to see his jealous face. It seems he's dating a female part-time worker at the same bar, and he had a very awkward look on his face. You can see other people's things well... you want them... Changing my objective... I'll sleep with him. When I asked him for sex for the first time in a long time, he didn't refuse. Like in his student days, I called him whenever it was convenient and repeated having sex. He really loved me... but the dilemma of not being able to make me his. He said he was going back to his hometown to rethink his life. I won't stop him... but, there are plenty of replacements for my boyfriend, but there's no replacement for you... I just want you to keep loving me forever. Is it selfish to think that? I've given you a lifetime tattoo of youth...
